…revealed my deepest recesses: fear, unworthiness, and distrust in my authentic, and artistic self.

The process unfolded in the following way: I apply paper with industrial glue to works – watercolors, drawings and photographs - that I did not like. Violently scraping and sawing into the artwork’s surface became my artist rubber (Dreams, 2023). Vigorous trials deemed failures are hidden and tortured. Layer upon layer is added, the delicate inconsolable hand becomes obscured and veiled by the uncouth, by the unforgiving. By the relentless.

In this process, original aspects are not erased or washed away but buried and cut and compartmentalized to the underground. The only evidence of their existence are the layers and slices left upon them. It becomes a surface of steps, each step attempting to lead up to perfection. But which also leads down to the discarded (Pieces of Peace, 2023). My earliest works of this collection are of course those that are no longer visible. They are the paintings, photographs and drawings underneath the finished work (No Body Sees You, 2023).

It took me months to realize that self-doubt, self-denial was the force that drove me to glue and dig into my work. My work became a literal and metaphorical representation of my own personal burying…